This is DAY ONE...not the first. But I was successful today :-)
I've also started reading/listening to books regarding why I eat emotionally (read - out of control when I think that getting fit is the MOST important thing to me). I have enough knowledge now about what to do...
I just don't last long enough before I eat something stupid/sugary/soothing/comforting. I would lose ten pounds and regain. I would feel helpless, terrified that I am so out of control of something so simple as what to EAT. So many transformations out there and I sometimes can't last a week...sometimes can't last a whole day before I would find myself feeling that old familiar loss of control, knowing I would eat something good/bad and this time again, I would start TOMORROW FRESH.
But even MY mind, muddied with denial, finally started protesting even before the YUM fest began, knowing I would feel drained, used up and exhausted the next day, knowing I had failed myself again, started back at square one. Again.
There is a saying about success needing persistence. But persistence is just flat out exhausting and draining if you are continually "persisting" by continually circling back and starting OVER. Banging your head against a wall is just as effective. Same head. Same wall.
I've only started to read/listen (books on tape - godsend) about the "addiction" being about feeling helpless. And how to catch your "trigger" early enough to change your response. Stay tuned. :-)
